I Feel Like I'm Dying, That I'm Going To Suffocate

by Elizabeth
(United States )

I am almost 18 years old and have been regularly experiencing sleep paralysis since I was 13. I always thought I was awake, and that this was really happening. I'd be laying there unable to move, I could barely breathe and sometimes I couldn't open my eyes. I'd have them slightly open enough to see a man beside my bed laughing at me, and I felt angry at him.

I was able one time, and one time only to speak, and I told him I was going to kill him. He laughed harder and my eyes slammed shut and all I could feel was a human biting me all over my body. When I experience this paralysis I try to call for help but I can't, I feel as though some one is pinning me down, and I'm desperate to get out.

When I break free from it I'm soaked with sweat and gasp as though I am finally getting oxygen. Most of them time I won't go back to sleep because I'm so terrified it's going to happen again. I don't always see this man, but when I do it's just a black figure and I can't make out his appearance. Sometimes I'll see their eyes and they are the brightest blue and they're mocking.

This happened just recently when I was spending the night with my boyfriend. It's never happened to me when someone was with me before that. He said he woke up because I was loudly whimpering like a wounded animal (I think I was trying to talk and call for help), and severely shaking. It scared him and he said he grabbed me by the bends of my elbows and started shaking me but I wouldn't wake up. He turned the light on and slapped me lol, and I woke up looked at him and said "what?" but he just looked horrified. I then grabbed him and buried my head in his chest, because I was so scared. He told me what happened and I told him that I had that paralysis (I've told him about it before) and I was able to go back to sleep cuddling with him.